However, I feel like it can't happen because for some reason, I'm like an undesirable person or something, even though I know I'm totally not(Did that sound vain? I hope not. I am pretty, though.).
My friend Mikayla, who was talking about this earlier(post can be found here: x), made me think about a lot of "Firsts" in my life, namely my first date and my first kiss, both of which turned out horrendously- more on that later. Like, I've been asked on a whopping total of TWO dates. And I have also been asked to two dances, so I've been asked for my fair share of things, but just once I'd like to go on a date with someone I haven't been to a dance with. It's frustrating.
So, I might as well give you all a rundown on my two firsts.
Date: This was Homecoming my sophomore year. I thought my date was a nice guy until we got to dinner and all he talked about was himself. That was fun. Then at the dance, he tried to kiss me, and then asked me to be his girlfriend. That was so much fun. I said no, and after that, he transferred schools. So, that was an interesting first date experience.
Kiss: OH THIS WAS AWFUL BUT ALSO AWESOME AT THE SAME TIME AND I JUST DON'T KNOW WHICH FEELING TO PICK. Anyway, it was Homecoming of this year, and I was going with one of the leads in the school play, lucky me. Anyway, the night before, at the Homecoming game, he was basically kissing every girl in the cast of the show. I seriously was not even up for it at all, even though I was in the cast and well, 'everyone was doing it'. At around halftime, my lovely friends (seriously, they're amazing even though I was super duper embarrassed by them for this) called him over and told him to kiss me, which he did. But after that, he basically wrote it off, even though I liked him at the beginning of the year. Then I realized that he's a real jerk and well, that's that.
But honestly, I hate being the one who has to ask someone to go on a date with me. Maybe it'll change when I'm in college and I'm more mature and stuff. I dunno. I just want to be asked on a date for once, even though I've been asked on two.
But like I said, I live in fiction,and I definitely think that guys should do the first initiation of stuff because to me, it just makes sense. I've done most of the asking in my few years of dating, so why can't they?
Anyway, I'm sorry for the rant.
Peace out.
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