Wednesday, December 25, 2013
Monday, November 18, 2013
A Friendly Conversation
Anyway, we kind of got to talking about a lot of stuff, namely social media and what we're going to do with it after we graduate. I honestly hadn't really thought about what I'm going to do with social media after I graduate. This blog is definitely staying, and maybe I'll even post more than once a month, which is about my average. I think if I do that, things will change and I'll have exciting things to say to all of you.
The things that will be going away, to some extent:
- Why? It's sucked my life away and it isn't really worth my time. I mean, sure it might have some pretty great tips and stuff for a college student, but I don't care enough about it to continue it after graduation.
- Okay, so I know that Facebook is going to be important when I leave home because of family members that live out of state already, but I just have no interest in updating every day and learning about what everyone is doing. What's your business is yours, and what business is mine is mine. Simple as that.
- Twitter feels like a waste of time to me. Sure, I can find out about what Misha Collins is doing on it, but it's not really my favorite thing. I used to love it, when I was a sophomore and a junior, but now that I'm getting ready to graduate, it also means that I'm getting ready to sever ties with a lot of people, which also means getting rid of a lot of social media
- Vine
- Please, don't get me started on Vine. The end.
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
For the Sake of Uniformity
Friday, October 11, 2013
Choir, choir, choir
I love choir, okay? But this is just stressful and ridiculous. Do we really need to sing for eight hours? Really? That's TOO MUCH SINGING.
Monday, September 30, 2013
Can I Just Quit School?
I kind of absolutely hate everything right now. Like, everything that could go wrong has lately and it's awful. I'd just like one day where something doesn't completely crush my mood/heart.
But I don't even think it's possible. Grrr...
And school is stressing me out so completely and it's barely been a month.
Can it not? I'd like to enjoy my senior year, but I'm just so overwhelmed and it's really not a good thing.
School is dumb. People are dumb. Bleck.
Saturday, August 10, 2013
I'm really bad at this
I have an excuse, but you probably don't care. Here it is anyway: I've been working my butt off.
Last night, I finally finished a post that I've been working on for a while because I'm tired of the normal reaction people give when they find out anyone is an artist. Everyone has their dreams. DON'T FREAKING CRUSH THEM, OKAY?
Sorry, I'm just really upset by the whole, "yeah, whatever" type of responses.
I had someone at work look at me funny when they found out that I'm a writer. He said, "What're you gonna do? Write books?" My answer, "Yep." I looked at him expectantly, waiting for the laugh, and it came. He then proceeded to tell me that his major in school was as far from that as possible.
What did that have to do with anything? He said that what he did was hard, and I bit my tongue because writing is HARD. He said there were rules and it was structured and then proceeded to tell me that basically, he was superior because you know, math.
IT MAKES ME SO ANGRY. I then proceeded to inform him that there are a lot of rules to writing that you can break on occasion, but you really shouldn't. Everyone knocks writing because it's supposed to be easy. but it isn't. It's probably one of the most challenging things to do because it's so structured, and if you're going to write fiction... PLOT. What's a story without a plot? Sure math and science are exact and take a lot of work, but so does writing.
I essentially described writing fiction as "a big ball of wibbly-wobbly, timey-wimey... stuff" because that's exactly what it is. Thank you, Mr. David Tennant for that delightful quote.
Friday, August 9, 2013
I Am A Writer
"Oh, you're a writer? How nice."
Yeah, it's really nice. It's really nice when I get thrown onto the pile of "Ha, good luck" careers.
Writers, dancers, musicians, artists, actors, singers. It's the same for all of us. We get laughed at behind our backs because what we love is considered a "nice dream".
It's a struggle. It's a terrible struggle that leaves me feeling hopeless a lot of the time. I write, but it's terrible, sometimes downright laughable. My writing, though it has progressed a lot during the past few years of school still sucks. Honestly.
But there's one person who thinks otherwise. Sometimes, it's two or three people who think otherwise. And that makes a difference. It makes a difference in how I perceive my own writing. I begin to realize that, hey, maybe it is all right and it's not a piece of $#%^.
It's like when I started writing for myself. I realized that I could write whatever the hell I want and nobody can say anything about it because it belongs to me, and that's okay.
Steven Moffat has said that the only way to write is to write for yourself. He's gotten a lot of hate for it because he's the head writer of Doctor Who, and fans want to see a lot on the show.
At first I didn't understand why he said that, but now I do because that really is the only way to write. To let it all be for myself, rather than for someone else. Sure, I write things for people sometimes, but I'm still in charge and whatever they want to see will happen, but I'm the one guiding it, so it may not happen how they'd like it to.
I don't really know how well I'm going to progress with what I want to do. But I don't want to write a book anymore. I've done that. Yeah, it was a horrible book, but I did what I had planned to do before I turned sixteen. I wrote a damn book.
Am I going to let people read it? Sure, but not my parents. I'll let my friends take it and pick it apart and laugh at me because I even laugh at how it was definitely the "next Twilight". There's no vampires or werewolves in the book, but the plot took a back seat to the romance, and that's something I shouldn't have done. But I wrote it, and I'm really proud of that.
Now, I write smatterings of everything. A little poetry, a little bit of fiction, a little non-fiction, a lot of journaling. It feels so amazing to get the words on paper and to just write and let it all flow out of me.
Maybe someday I'll write a memoir. I've already started it, and it's been a struggle. But the reward of realizing that someday people might read it and say, "wow, I really look up to her," is enough to keep me going for the sweet taste of victory.
But maybe I won't ever get published. That's okay, as long as I'm doing what I love.
And what I love is writing.
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
Really Awesome Diner
I'm hanging out with my dad right now, and we're at this really awesome diner. We go here a lot, so I figured I'd tell you all about it.
They have the best hot chocolate. It honestly tastes like Oreos. And their eggs are yummy.
But their milkshakes... YUM. I came here once with my friend, and we shared a basket of fries and each got a milkshake. In a sense, we were reenacting that one part of Twist and Shout... you know, before it becomes soul-crushing. I don't know which one of us was Cas or Dean, but it was so much fun.
The decorations are really cool, too. One part is completely covered in old license plates, and there's all of these postcards hanging from the ceiling. There's also a picture of Elvis on the wall, and when I was here with my friend, I pointed it out and we both kind of just said "Cas and Dean. I can see it."
I'm going to stop with the destiel stuff.
It's just a really cool place, okay?
Thursday, July 4, 2013
Now I can Blog Whenever I Want
Guys, this is the best thing ever! I don't have to be on my computer to blog anymore! However, posting pictures is going to be a hassle because they show up underneath all of the text, which is annoying as hell. I'll caption one and then put one in, then do another and so on.
Here, we have The Doctor acting childlike.
And here is my tiny porch. It's not so much a porch as a staircase.
Ummm, ooooooh, how about Englishman Sillyname, Chris Pine and Zachary Quinto?
Oh my gosh, it's an app!
I may or may not be posting this from my phone! How cool is it that I can blog wherever, now?
THIS IS AWESOME.
and I think I can do pictures, too.
Look at my Star Trek OTP!
Please Don't Hate Me
I am so sorry. I've just forgotten.
I still love all of you.
So, it's the Fourth of July. Huzzah for America!
Okay, that's enough about America for the moment.
An update on my summer list:
So, I've done about two of the things on my list that are ridiculously awesome. I'm really liking this summer! I've been working a lot, too, which I like, but ARGH WORK. I really enjoy working for my family because it's the family business, so I'm with my family a lot. My other job is hard because I'm not really a social person, hence the blog and the fact that I read a lot and also... I saw Star Trek two times in the same week... anyway, working there is a challenge because I get asked about my love life a lot, and if any of you know me at all, you know that's completely impossible. I don't have a love life. I don't even like anyone, guy or girl. I just have no interest in dating. And I feel like that's almost a requirement for being a teenager, but then I think about how the rest of my friends are, and I realize that I'm completely normal.
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
I am a Terrible Person
I've had the most ridiculous past few weeks, and I know I said that last time, but it's true. UGH. SCHOOL.
It's summer now, so hopefully I'll have something to tell you about every day.
I guess I could share my Summer Bucket List.
Okay, here goes.
Pull an all-nighter- Go to the zoo
- Go on a ghost hunt
- Go exploring
- Finish the rewrite of my book (that might not happen)
- See Rock of Ages in Vegas
- Go to Blue Plate Diner
- Have fun
- Choir
Thursday, May 16, 2013
So Sorry!
Um, I got caught up to Supernatural...
NOPE
That's all I have to say about it right now. I'm sure I'll have more later, but I'm still kind of broken from the season finale.
Saturday, April 27, 2013
I'm gonna liveblog Grease just because I can
LET'S DO THIS!!!!!
Okay, the fact that the opening montage is basically Sandy and Danny on the beach makes me want to cry because Twist and Shout.
Dammit, I'm crying now.
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Chill out, Marley. You can do thissd
grnkgdnkjhbf.gdnkbjfja "It's only the beginning!"
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I HAVE TOO MANY TWIST AND SHOUT FEELS NOW!
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Okay, I can do this.
Oh, look, it's Rizzo!
One of my dream roles is Rizzo.
All of my dream roles involve sex or drugs... or both. I'm beginning to wonder if that's a bad thing...
I'm not gonna cry. Nope. Not gonna do it. This is a happy movie, and I need to be happy and not think about Destiel.
Nope.
I feel so bad for Danny. His friends are teasing him about Sandy and they don't even know her yet.
Ah, the Pink Ladies.
I love this movie so much!
Ah, Sonny.
Poor Sandy....
Part of me wonders if Jan has a huge girl-crush on Rizzo, just by the way she stares at her. It's so funny.
Sandy is so innocent!
Patty Simcox. the way she says president... "Pre-zi-DENT" it's rather annoying.
OOOOOOOH THOSE SU-HUMMER NIIII-HIIGHTS!
the song hasn't started yet, i'm just excited.
"You don't wanna hear all the horny details!"
Oh my lord. i never noticed that till this time.
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Tell me more tell me more!
I just love this song, okay?
Part of me wonders whose version is the correct one. Maybe elements of both? I definitely think Sandy's is right, but there's got to be some truth to Danny's side... right?
I don't know. I just ajdfhadhfjka love this song. so much.
oh, they all laughed at her.
that's sad.
the secretary and her crush on the football coach is too cute!
Danny's too cool to goof off.
KENECKI HAS HIS CAR!
Sandy's opinion of Danny is exactly the same one i have of a certain ass.
jan and the commercial is like so great
"Here, Frenchy, you can use my virgin pin!"
LOOK AT ME, I'M SANDRA DEE! LOUSY WITH VIRGINITY!
GOSH I LOVE THIS SONG!
KEEP YOUR FILTHY PAWS OFF MY SILKY DRAWERS!
ELVIS ELVIS LET ME BE!
DAMMIT. TWIST AND SHOUT FEELS.
DAMN ELVIS
NOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPENOPE
WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN?
THIS WAS A BAD IDEA.
I'M GONNA STOP LIVEBLOGGING THIS.
OTHERWISE I MIGHT CRY OVER EVERYTHING.
GOODBYE.
Monday, April 22, 2013
Why I Want SuperWhoLock
Let me begin with this fan-made trailer I found on YouTube
Talk about an explosion of feels. Most of them bad because of Supernatural and Sherlock. But the way it could all just be so perfect.
So, that's part of the reason I want SuperWhoLock.
Another reason is Mark Sheppard. He's already been on Supernatural and Doctor Who, so if he shows up on Sherlock, we already have SuperWhoLock.
But the way the three shows fit together already...
I don't know.. just perfect.
Think about it. Poor Sherlock and Cas would be walking around not really getting the cultural references that Dean and John would throw around, which would just be hilarious. It would be like, "I don't understand that reference, do you?" and Sherlock would say, "No. I deleted it from my brain." then Dean would put his arm around Cas, and John would give Sherlock the Winchester bitchface, which he learned from Sam.
AND OH MY LORD JACK HARKNESS! DSSFDKJGKJDF HJ FE;WJF KPEOJFDBVAGBVHGJVSFDKVKFDHAKSHVJAF
JACK AND CAS AND DEAN ALL TOGETHER! AND JACK WOULD MAKE JOKES ABOUT CAS AND DEAN AND I HONESTLY CANNOT RIGHT NOW.
Monday, April 15, 2013
After Forever...
Okay, I really need to go to bed.
Goodnight, pals!
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
My Random Blatherings
This is going to be a pretty random post, as they have been lately. Really random.
So, you don't have to continue reading if you don't want to.
Let's see, to start, I just have to tell you all that I love my sister so much. She is my best friend, and I really don't know what I would do without her. She's the Dean to my Sam.
Last night was super fun with her. We were on our way home from the RSL reserve game, and she was talking about he-who-shall-not-be-named. We joked about him a little bit, then she asked me how I got guys to like me.
My answer: I'm smart, I'm hot, and I generally hate men.
Really, I have no idea how I get guys to like me. It just happens, and most of the time, it's guys that I have absolutely no interest in. And that's the worst kind. They just hover and act like puppy dogs, and sometimes you take advantage of that, and you know that it's bad, but sometimes it's just fun to play with them.
Yes, I know that it's bad. Don't judge me. I'm sure everyone has done it at least once in their lifetime.
SERIOUSLY. DON'T JUDGE ME.
Okay, so this obsession with Rock of Ages is just beginning. I freaking love the soundtrack, and I've listened to it so much over the past few days. Now I really want to see it on a stage. It's so GOOD!
I had a great spring break. The new Doctor Who scared the asdkjfhah out of me, and now I don't like logging into any wi-fi. It's the scariest thing ever.
I'm halfway through the fifth season of Supernatural. It's so great. I want my very own Cas. He is so amazing and I would love an angel best friend!
Okay, I think that's all for tonight.
Good night, everyone!
Friday, March 29, 2013
Doctor Who... among other things
Isn't JarPad so adorable in that gif?
Okay, let's see, I'm listening to "This Is My Idea" from The Swan Princess on repeat because I love it so much.
I just love that movie with all of my heart. It's so cute. I think that Odette and Derek were my first ever ship.
No, scratch that.
My first ever ship was definitely Madeline and Pepito. Yeah... that was it. so. cute.
I used to think I was Madeline. That was before I thought I was Hermione, and Madeline was something actually feasible due to my tiny-ness and red hair. I still remember singing the songs that they put in the TV show and the animated movies. I also really liked the live action one they did. Still do. I actually bought it on DVD a while ago. Like, Madeline was my first ever fandom, too. Wow...
That's a little nuts. I've always been a total geek. Sweet.
Tonight, I'm going to my sisters' dance performance and I'm excited to see them perform.
I'M MADELINE! I'M MADELINE! I'M NOT SOME LITTLE TWIG! I'M MADELINE! I'M MADELINE! AND INSIDE I'M BIG!
Sorry about that. I just really love Madeline, guys.
I forgot how much I love her, and now I just want to wear a blue coat and a cute little hat with a red bow, and now I want a dog named Genevieve, and now I want a sort-of-enemy named Pepito.
SOMEONE HELP ME!
I'm feeling nostalgic, and that's not really something I do.
I usually just drown in Johnlock feels... or Destiel, but that's relatively new, so I don't really have that many feels about them yet. Right now, I know I ship it, and that's about where I am with it. And that's okay.
Now, I'm listening to the Madeline's Favorite Songs soundtrack, and I a;dskghkjhfkjdlgad.
Oh, my heart.
I want to be little again.
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Thursday, March 28, 2013
WHY PROM, WHY?
First of all, I'd like to thank my mom for playing Devil's Advocate during prom season.
Though hearing "He's probably not going to ask you," is really hard, it definitely helps me stay focused on other things. Prom is not that important. It's just a dance.
Over the past couple of days, I've become that prom-obsessed teenage girl, which I really don't need. I have never been that girl who obsesses over the next dance.
I have a lot of stuff running through my mind right now, so I'm just going to ramble on for a bit.
Fair warning: this could either be very boring or very interesting. Or both. You don't have to read this if you don't want to. Enjoy.
I'm listening to Demi Lovato right now. I like some of her stuff. Mostly the older stuff. It's pretty good, and it is a lot better than trying to do this without music. I guess it's also Thursday...
"And I start to go insane every time that you look at me."Thanks for that insight, Demi.
Anyway, Thursday.
I can't really think of anything except for the fact that there's a new Doctor Who on Saturday. I AM SO EXCITED!!!!!!!!!! hgahkjsdhflagkjafglskdhfkjdhghjdshg;hdgkjaghljkdgl;rkgh;kdjsgkjdgkrahgkfdghkjdgjralghakd
Sorry about that.
Oh, my lord, I am so done with him. Do you know that feeling? Where you are just so annoyed, and you're ready to either kiss them or kill them. Your choice, friends. At the moment, I'm leaning toward kill. I'm that annoyed, but he's so sweet.
My mom said that if he was leading me on, she was going to be pissed. I love my mom. She's the greatest person in the world. Like, really. Who doesn't love their mom?
Anyway, he's just being a Grade-A jerk. But to me that's a term of endearment.
Damn Supernatural. WHY DOES THIS EVEN HAPPEN?
I want to spew profanities on the interwebs right now.
But I'm not going to. I want to be respectable.
You can bet that they're running through my head right now. Any time that you see me do a keyboard smash.... well, you'll know. ,mxzcnm,xvvb
WHAT IS MY KA;DSHF;AHJKAL LIFE?
DAMN IT ALL!
sorry.
I'm just super-duper on edge tonight because my dogs were barking at something in my driveway that just turned out to be my neighbors riding their bikes across the street, NOT a beautiful, beautiful boy with an equally as beautiful car. unf. His car. I can't even. I just found out about it last Friday, and I about died in my own tiny car. My tiny car that I love because it gets me places. It's also technically my mom's car, and she was driving when I saw his car. Dear lord, it's a beautiful car.
Am I in love with the car and not the boy?
No. I liked him before I knew about his car. The car is just a bonus.
Okay, I think I need to just finish this post and put my mind on something else.
Yeah. Good idea.
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Oh, Spring Break
I'm on spring break!
I am so ready for this break. SO READY.
One thing would make it better, though.
If someone would stop being am assbutt and text me back. Or ask me to prom. That would be okay, too.
Sorry.
So, it's Wednesday, and I had work today, so I technically started spring break early, which is like the best thing ever, considering I didn't have to go to school, and that was nice. I am so tired, so I apologize for any strange things that may appear on this blog tonight. But it's fun, so I don't care. I actually took a nap today- not really. I slept in the car on the way home from work. Oh! And I wasn't driving, so everything is okay.
There's a new Psych tonight. I AM SO EXCITED! There's also a new Supernatural, but since I'm not all the way caught up, I can't watch it. ugh.
I just want to get caught up really badly! I'm like three seasons behind! Maybe I'll get caught up this weekend, considering it's spring break and that's what people do on spring break.
They watch Netflix. And that is what I plan to do because I can and I'm a teenager and that's how teenagers are supposed to act.
On the other hand, I have a list of OTPs. I know it's not Thursday, but I just have to share them with you all.
- Johnlock
3. Hinny
4. Romione
5. Neal/Sara
6. Amy/Rory
7. Ten/Rose
8. Nine/Rose
9. Eleven/River
10. Klaine
I think that's it. I can expand on them later if I need to.
Lots of Tuesday Posts...
Actually, I might.
I'm avoiding my math homework that's due tomorrow so that I can have a good grade.
I should probably be doing that.
I watched Rock of Ages today. Jukebox musicals are always the best musicals. They're just fun, and sometimes they're easy to predict.
Like, I knew that "Can't Fight This Feeling" by REO Speedwagon was going to be one of the songs. Like, I just knew, and then when it happened, I laughed and sang along.
It was really fun to sing along with the whole musical because I love classic rock, so that was just super fun.
I wish I could stop getting sick. That's all I want.






































